My husband devoted all his time to work, leaving me in the care of my father-in-law. Feeling the limits of my unfamiliar nursing life, I requested home nursing care. …and that’s how it all began. I was abused by the caregiver while my father-in-law slept. I continued to be fucked every time he visited, the feeling of disgust being overshadowed by pleasure. I didn’t want to use loneliness as an excuse to admit my stupidity. But…